Jesus, I'm afraid.
I'm afraid my heart will break-
and all these million shattered pieces can't reconnect to see the world I once saw.
Jesus, I'm afraid.
I'm afraid of what I'll discover-
how that will challenge everything I know,
everything I hold onto.
Jesus, I'm afraid.
I'm afraid of leaving this ignorance only to enter into this wrestling-
this seemingly endless struggle.
Jesus, I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that the guilt will be too much-
that the shame would lie to deep-
that the despair will never end.
Quest begin.
As tears wet this page, I realize that the crisis doesn't lie all around me, but within me.
"Don't poke my bubble. Don't push too far. Don't look too deep."
I'm afraid of what you'll discover.
