slow to anger
That means you still get angry right?
Somehow that concept always made me think of burying your anger. Hide your frustration and hurt. Don't acknowledge the pain and injustice.
I first started realizing this after the Japanese Internment Camp exhibit in the Oakland museum. So much pain. No acknowledgement. Move on. Prove you belong.
There was no lament. There still isn't
So I realize that maybe my slow reactions are Japanese American- bred from generations of 'push it down' 'don't fight' 'let it be'. Don't be unsettled by someone else's offense.
It's this facade of calm and serenity with a neglect of raw reaction and lament. Am I continuing cycles of injustice by neglecting the lament? Am I letting the white man walk all over us again by having grace and forgiveness?
slow to anger. quick to forgive.
Who is repenting? And why does it always have to be me?
